Pain

So Jr got some of his cells back, blessed by Pastor Sue here at the hospital.  She is my go to person when things are bad, when I am feeling depressed.  She is also our bubble connection.  Junior is usually happy to see her, first because he knows that she is not going to come and poke or prod, second, her unending supply of bubbles and the will to blow them until he is satisfied.  Bless you Pastor Sue!
The cells went in with no problem, very anti climatic since his counts still continued downward and we do not see any improvement from it.  Now his counts are bottomed, the first fever is here. 
Pain meds.  He is now receiving pain medication from the sores in his mouth and throat.  He feels terrible.  We started with morphine (scary for me) but have decided that it makes him nauseous.  He is now getting dilaudin, another opiate, seems to be working better. 
It was so nice outside today, this whole trip has not been so bad when the weather was wintry and cold, nice weather makes me want to get him outside.  Depressing.