First I want to thank all the people who have looked at this blog in the last months even though I have not posted.
Junior's fourth birthday is coming June 21. I cannot even bear it. What are we supposed to do? Birthday cake graveside?
I haven't looked at any of the AT/RT sites I used to go to. On Facebook, I see the families who haven't lost their child and I am so jealous. I see the families who are about to lose their child and I have no words of encouragement. I see the familes who have lost a child and I feel no kinship, all we have in common is misery. I want no company in my misery.
I have my family still, and I appreciate them so much more, but I still give time to Junior. When I am doing dishes, folding laundry, working at night, those times are for him.
Hey Dad (Manfred Sr), has a great idea. If we get to go on our amusement park trip this summer, we will get shirts saying "Junior Memorial trip 2012" or something of the like. I think its a great idea. Their is also going to be a stone placed at "Give Kids the World" in Orlando.
We still love you and miss you baby.
